BLEED
Wednesday, October 22, 2008 @ 9:30 PM
i used to believe in dreams .
that they would come true.
but now,
reality is disagreeing with me .
dad blamed me for something
stupid i said about some stupid
mistake my brother made .
that made him cry like a sissy.
i walked further in front of them,
quickly.
the first teardrop rolled down my cheek.
you know i don't cut myself right?
yeahh, i don't but when i was young,
i used to abuse myself.
in a different way.
i bit myself.
on the arm.
whenever my mother
made me feel bad
about something stupid
that most young kids
like i did.
it didn't bleed,
but heck,
it sure hurt.
i pinched myself too.
real hard.
until there were bruises
and marks.
whenever someone asked me
about them,
i said it was an accident.
it worked.
everyone was fooled.
everyone but me.
i'm crying RIGHT NOW.
i won't deny it any longer.
the tears are dripping on the keyboard,
but nobody is noticing.
"hush now, dear. sleep. let your troubles wear off."
nights .
